OK, this is a tough post to write, for many reasons. The last update I did was roughly mid-June, when I was doing really well, and my weight was roughly 175. I would see the scale dip to 173 before I felt devastation on a major scale. I don't think I've ever felt more defeated. In terms of self-image and the shattering of trust, this is as bad as it gets.
I think I am done with feeling the worst of it, and can once again focus on moving forward with my own personal journey of self empowerment. I can't undo what's done. I just need to stay positive, focused and strong.
Starting again is so familiar to me now, it's like putting on a pair of shoes. My weight from three days ago was 199.4, and I'm finishing a bout with the flu. Maybe that was the sign to rededicate, maybe the beginning of 2013. Maybe the end of 2012. I have no clue. I just know it's time.
Once more unto the breach, dear friends, once more.
