Fourteen Weeks.

Today my weight is 192.8. I am still continuing to lose weight, and have incorporated a modicum of exercise into my habits. It's time, I suppose, to stop treating this as a lark, and get serious about my shape.

As I get smaller, I find two things happening: One: I am getting more impatient for the numbers to reduce to suit my mood. This is not a good thing, and can lead to all sorts of mind games later on. I try not to succumb to the unrealistic desire for the pace to accelerate, after all, my skin won't keep up, and I'll end up with baggy and saggy extra skin. I have no idea if this will happen to me, but hey, I'm creeping up on 51, and there's only so much stretching a balloon can do before it gets that awful look to it.

The second thing I find happening is that I'm starting to care about my appearance again. I have opened the two ear holes in my lobes that I pretty much allowed to close up, in anticipation of wearing the earring collection I used to value. I have purchased some skin items to "tone" my skin, and help with age-related problems. Dunno if any of this will benefit me; I've never used anything more than soap and water, and maybe some zit pads. I have been refreshing my makeup, and using it occasionally. I'm going to the salon soon for a haircut. I haven't had a style in over 14 months. Probably more. I keep my roots covered, but that's about it. My rings are starting to fit again.

It's a long way yet to my goal weight, but I'm starting to adapt to the slightly smaller me. I still don't feel thin yet, maybe it's because I'm not. 193 is still significantly overweight. It's just much better than 229.

Today is a down day, and as an ongoing observation I see very little true hunger on my down days. If I feel a twinge, I usually drink some water, or decaf coffee, and wait it out. It really does go away and leave me alone. Sometime around 1pm I'll start looking at the clock, waiting for the window I allow myself to eat. I like to wait until 2:30, because once I do start to eat on a down day, it seems it wakes my appetite up. So I make sure I eat protein. Turkey and some almonds usually do the trick.

Eventually I'm going to get very tired of these meager portions every other day, but maintenance will be more lax regarding caloric intake.

But now I'm back to Number One: I want the weight off already...